For most of my life I thought using one’s intuition, tuning-in to spirit, receiving messages, connecting to guides and angels was simply a gift with which others were fortunately bestowed – not me. That is, if any of it actually was genuine. As a suspicious skeptic of anything I couldn’t experience with the five senses, I wasn’t quite sure and yet was so curious to learn more.
When I began receiving energy sessions, and then delving into learning about it more depth, I started down a road from which I have never turned back. I was continually amazed by my experiences, and still am – to this day. Even if I couldn’t explain it clearly or provide proof outside of my own results (and later – those of clients), I loved it. I’ve experienced the most wonderful shifts and so much growth as a result.
I suffered with shyness going back as far as I can remember. As I got older it evolved into (or maybe it always was) some form of anxiety, though I didn’t know that’s what it was, nor was it ever formally diagnosed. I just had a subtle undercurrent of fear within me all the time: what others might think, of not being good enough, not being liked, being judged – the works.
I tried counselling, talked things through with friends and family, exercised, kept a gratitude journal – many of the usual recommendations. These things helped a little, but not completely.
Things began shifting as I explored energy sessions.
But I didn’t actually seek out ‘healing’ to help my fear and anxiety – at least not initially.
In fact, I didn’t really think that I even needed healing. Healing was for sprained ankles and other physical ailments. I figured my shyness – and therefore that ever-flowing undercurrent of fear – was just part of my personality, just part of who I was.
While open to alternative forms of therapy, it was actually my fascination and curiosity (and healthy dose of skepticism) that sparked my journey with intuitive energy work.
After each session I would feel lighter and clearer, able to see past the mental chatter and fear for awhile. I was amazed by the intuitive messages the practitioner often shared, too – incredibly curious as to how they had this special connection. Of course, later I learned that we all have the ability to connect to spirit – it’s not just for a chosen few.
I began to see energy sessions as a welcome alternative and complement to counselling, and at that point began seeking it more intentionally. But I still didn’t really think of it as healing, per se. I just wanted to feel better; and yes, that is the simple word I usually used to describe how would feel after a session: better.
Lasting changes didn’t happen overnight, though. In fact, they were so incremental that I identify with the sloth when I think of my spiritual growth, awakening, and the gaining of trust that formed the root of overcoming of fear.
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